It is a kind of sadness I cannot describe
A kind of pain worse being stabbed in a knife
A notion that makes me want to cry
The bear feeling of rejection in pain

I do not know why you forsake me
Because Like you I am also alone
You say you do not have friends
Look at me, Do I ?
You say you do not have people that understands you
Look at ME , HAVE I ?

You search for that someone to care for you, to distract you
Look at Me, AIN'T I LOOKING ??
You say you have physical problems
Look at Me , Don't I ?
You say you have mental problems
Look at Me, do you know me ??

You say you have pain and suffering
LOOK AT ME, WHAT AM I GOING THRU ?????
You say you are alone and needs someone's company
Look at ME, AIN'T I ???
You say you cannot mix well with others and you prefer to be alone
Look at Me, DO you think I mix well ?? DO you think I don't feel like being alone sometimes ???
You say you are depressed
Look at Me, ain't I ??

TAKE A CLOSER LOOK AT THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU!!!!!
AM I SO MUCH DIFFERENT FROM YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE THE ONLY FREAKING PERSON THAT IS SO LONELY ALIVE ?????
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDER HOW I FEEL ??? WHEN YOU DO THINGS SO WELL AND I DON'T ??
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDER THAT WHEN YOU SHOW GREAT TALENT, I CAN ONLY SIT AND MARVEL !!!!
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDER THAT I HAVE PROBLEMS TOOO ?????
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDER MY FEELINGS WHENEVER YOU HAVE A BF ?????
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDER MY FEELINGS THAT YOU GET TO GO HOME EVER BLINKING WEEKEND AND I DON'T????


THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME AND YOU
IS THAT I TRY !!
I DON'T JUST CLING TO ANY BLINKING PERSON I SEE
I DON'T JUST WANT INTIMACY WITHOUT RESPONSIBILITY
I DON'T JUST SIT DOWN AND CRY
I DON'T JUST WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE
I TRY

I TRY MY FREAKING BEST IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE
SO FOR GOODNESS SAKE
WAKE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I guess you will never know, won't you of what I have said
Because you freaking blind to see me other than yourself
Because you freaking death to hear me other than the sweet words that they tell you
Because you freaking numb to feel for others other than their dirty fingers on you
wake up .... I am sick and tired .... I won't be and WILL NOT be classified under those guys that left you !!! Because when I was there you were occupied with yourself ... When you did not need me ... you left .... And now when I leave .... I will not be under that category ... If I catch you saying that I will slap you !!

Love is bette sweet

Love is like pandora box, once open could either bring you great power or destroy your soul.
Love is warm, describable feeling that overwhelms a soul
Love is like a thousand needles within the heart, striking it causing it to burst, until you stop it will go away
Love is like a whip cream on a chocolate ice-cream
Love is a like a lost treasure, once you find it, you keep it, because it will disappear if you don't
Love is like the sky painted according to evening scenery - beautiful -
Love is like a poisonous drug, once you stop you get cold turkey
Love is a flood but does not destroys, instead it covers and make a new
Love is like a heavy stone suppressing you when you drown

- guess i must fret no more, what's the use ?-