Monday, November 29, 2010


We are but flowers
Now here and tomorrow gone
Yet Your love shower
On us that is considered none

You captivate me
Your beauty is beyond description
Your heart as huge as the sea
Your affection knows no portion

"Oh God,
rid me of this dirty linen
that has covered my soul
Tainted me
Driven me apart for eternity
Pull me back to You
I pray
For I am not far from you
and I cant swim no more "

He is forever faithful
Glory be to highest
For His grace for this fool
Praise be to him the mightiest

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Can I sleep in your lap

Can I sleep on your lap
And fears will go away

Can I sleep on your lap
And forget my doubt so gray

Can I sleep on your lap
And just to think of you today

Can I sleep on your lap
And stay on it till the end of day

Can I sleep on your lap
Can I ?

Sunday, November 21, 2010

The story of hot water

O hot water
Every time you touch my body
I am enticed
You cleansed me from top to toe
Just being with you I could go one forever

O hot water
The days you left are cold
Without your warm cold is my foe
How I miss you
your refreshing spring
That braves me from the shiver

O hot water
Tho I called you never came
I was lonely and hungry
my froze like snow
and iceland I know live

O hot water
now that you have come
I thank Thee so

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Its been two months since I arrived at this place. I felt that I have done nothing, accomplish nothing and essentially hit the breaks when my dreams are concern. My spelling has dropped terribly because I have evidently stopped reading. I still have the brains to analyze things but I seldom do that. Actualization - Its a term coined by Carl Rogers. Its the tendency for growth and fulfillment. In other words, He puts it as if the condition is favourable, we will attempt to develop our potentialities to their maximum.

But I have met with a road block. And that road is blocking me and my Creator. Its called sin. Why is this relevant at all ? Well, this is might sound crazy but I think I can only assert by full potential when I am in a relationship with my creator. I don't dwell in my sins and remorse and guilt. BUT actively move forward. Does this make sense ? Well simply put, I can only move forward with Him looking out for me.

Do I sound absurd ? Well I guess partly is when you realize something important has passed you by. You feel remorse and regret. Well, I don't want to let things by. I want to focus !!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence
If I go up to heaven, you are there
If I go down to the grave you are there
If I ride the wings of the morning
If I dwell by the farthest ocean

even there your hand will guide me
and your strength will support me

I could ask darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you
To you the night shines as bright as day
Darkness and light are the same to you

Psalm 139: 7-12

My God you are too great for me to even comprehend
Only fools doubt you
and yet
we are the very fools that want your love
We are the very fools that go against you
We are the very fools that want glory and darkness
We are the very fools who defy you and run away from you
We are the very fools who threaten you


You love us still the same
You will seek us where we go
You are waiting for us to find you


I am sad and down
I don't know what ailments have beseech me
It colours my body in red and white dots
My skin feels like jumping
Wanting desperately for attention
My body has been strapped to a load of iron
My eyes grow weary

My soul wails of an emptiness
My minds cries out in agony
Trapped in confusion and pain
Cornered by the very people who wants to aid me
Ignored by those who love me

How can I escape this treachery
How can I be in a land of freedom and cheerfulness
Oh Lord Redeem me from this depths
Hold my hand and pull me up
I believe in your miracle
I believe in you
Let me not be fed to wolves
Or eaten by maggots
nor burn in this flame

Be my sanctuary and my refuge

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


Would you dance with me
Step by step
I will bring you to a whole new world

Let me listen to your heart
Beat by beat
I want to know you

Let me lead you
waltz by waltz
We explore new adventures

Let me disappear
little by little
because two is better than one

Let the music play
day by day
till our souls fade away
in this dance we sway

Shattered glasses

All you see is that me
The perfect me
The marvelous me
The outstanding me
The confident me
The bold me
The intelligent me
The "I can overcome all things" me
The thoughtful me
The controlled me

But in the secret depths
There is
The insecure me
The afraid me
The depressed me
The shy me
The indifferent me
The " I don't know" me
The crying me

All you see
the rotten me
the irresponsible me
the useless me
the stupid me
the good for nothing me
the dangerous me
the playful me

but in secret
there is
the "in pain" me
the scared me
the insecure me
the empty me
the lost me
the innocent me
the loving and caring me
the " I can be greater " me

Dear teacher, friend, mom, dad
If only you could see me
For this is me