Anger and rage

Maybe it is just me ... or maybe something else .... today I am at my ends feeling so uneasy .... I am feeling very difficult ... i am indeed figthing a battle that is so hard to battle .... Indeed the war is won but the battle is still open ... The opposition is still strong ... I feel like so outnumbered and so torn .... soon i will engage in even greater better ground ..... can i face it ..? Will I last .... for my price ..... will i save those precious to me ... will i go through when all else is stopping me ... will i end up disowning my friends ....... its so hard ...why .... why do i face endless trials ....i feel like i m figthing alone ......Help ....