A new year ...... that brings new hope .............. new challenge .... God spoke to me today ... He told me He will dfeat my enemies as long as i follow him ... i m grateful for 2007 of all the hurts and the happiness of 2007 ....... but i m ready to face you 2008 .....
I have a constant battle within myself ......... this reminds me of the Dr. Jekel and Mr. Hyde........ One representing evil ...... the other good....... I think its being built into our nature when we start to eat the fruit of good and evil that we become this double person. We display different characters at different times.... an selfish , crooked, nature that befalls us when we are in bad.. a good,welcoming, happy and joyful character when times are good.
Some sayings note that we must have a balance of ying and yang ............. good and evil .... love and hate. Then we are better humans .........hmm......... i believe? that is crap ..... " A servant can never serve 2 masters "... it always goes wrong ...... How can there exist good and evil ? love and hate at the same time. Who are we kiddin ? I belive there can only one winner ....... We can only muster one ..... God or devil........... love or lust ....... joy and sadness.......
Therefore i will tell you love and not hate ..... choose God and not the devil .... good over evil .... better said than done ? True ..... but the difference is if you know the way and have a strong will ..... you can do it ...... you can overcome the evil within you .... you choose love over lust .... Lets make this choice together if you are with me ................... The way is simple just ask God to show you the way.
The world has conform to helping yourselve that we have started to neglect others ....... The centre of our focus tend to be ourselves....... What happened ? We try to seek for love ....... We try to find new meaning in our lives ...... We tend to try to prove something ........ What is there .?
The great depth of emptiness and a sense of loseness .....
I personally have expierence such feeling ...... though i cannot tell u how deep i when ......Love starts we surrender our hurts and pains to the one who heals and restores--- God .... you will think i m talking crap and would just skip to the next blog.... but this serious .... but the thing is we dunnoe how to surrender to him .......
To make him King over our hearts instead of wanting power and fame that the world offers.......
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I think relationships and like wells .... The deeper you dig .. the purer the water u get ..... It draws water each day. Water for people .... but when better climate occurs .... our relationship turn dry and we cannot survive and sometimes it will be close down ... But some wells run dry but is never close ....and then on one fine day when a digger decide to dig again one sprouts out... some times relationships are dry and you think its the end ... but my advice to you is to hold on ... because when one fine day comes and the oppurnity arrives ... your relationship recieves and sparks .... receive water from the forever quenching water of God .... In the story of the Samarithan and Jesus ... Jesus show you the forever quenching water of christ .... if you want to hear more of this water do send me a comment
Apart of me today brings me to some thoughts about what has occured lately. i titled my post for today as the new and the old as it carries meaning on what i m about to tell you
"New" That's what we labelled ourselves as the new generation, the new breed, the modern and the most updated people on the planet. We are considered to have the latest gadgets and plans ....... "Old" they are considered as the pass age, the people who don't know how to enjoy life and work hard to achieve till they finish their lives without enjoying it....
Is that the difference between the "Old " and the "New"? That will a definate No ...... Sadly our Modern Age has lost the most important asset that the Old age has left us ..... That is the moral values ..... We live in a world where the moral values is considered a thing of the past ... Many of us do not stick what our parents or our seniour folks believe in ..... and worst still we indulge our selves in lust , in money , in power...... We believe in the wrong things ... and what is worst still we have lost our integrity ..... When we realise we try to impose them but somehow it doesnt suit us anymore ... because we have become so use to our ways we fall out ..... and then we try to teach our children ....the way ....... but its even saddening is we do not know how it is anymore ? how can we teach what we do not know ...... We try all other methods but it only bring us to a fall .....
There was a famous prophet who said " i m the way the truth and the life ". People at that time thought he was mad .... but truth is the correct way was shown ... and if we dun grab it , its will be gone .... For those who knew the way ... we should practice it so that people will learn of this great things
I believe that the only way to succeed our past generation is not only to improve how we live our lives but rather the way it ought to be lived .....
The feeling of lost somehow appear to me this week ...... i feel that i m no one ... i felt i was nothing .... and Each time i get this feeling ... i grow cold and i feel sick ........ i hate it. But where can i find warmness where all else is cold? What do u see me as ?
It is this times i wish to be in someone else arms ..... it is this time i wish to disappear from this earth .... it is when this time i wish there was another world where i could fly .......
May be all of us are trap in one way or another ..... felt a sense of lost, in a time we cant tell ...... felt a time of need of friend ..... not so much as to help making things better ..... but just being there .... just the intimacy..... and the touch
Where is my escape ........
LUST OR LOVE
Close your eyes and rest
and then count to ten ...................
by the end of it who is the first person on your mine ?
The person probably be the person you always think about
Now ........... Do you love him / her or because of his /her looks or ways
Be honest.............
Now think of someone you hate .............
repeat the procedure.................
By the end of it switch this two person's faces and attitudes .....
Now try to imagine u loving that same person again ......
if you can.........
Congrates
if you cant ....
watch out of wat are looking for in that person
Have u ever felt so lonely ?? that u thought no one was there ...... have u ever felt so cage up that u wish for some freedom ... or wish tat something would just make things ok in ur family ... or wish tat some would just wake up from the dead ..? Hundreds and Hundreds of wishes are sung in the heart each day ... some are long ... some are short ..... all of us wish for something to happen so that we can escape for our problems and emptiness ......
If only i can do tat ...... or If only tat would happen .... ? Well the sad things about all these things is this the more we wish for it the more it is further away from us .... and it blinds us of the things we have now ..... and leaves us so empty ...... Life is short .... and if we dun appreciate what we have now we will loose it ..............
Have u ever heard of the Dog bone story ? A dog found a bone and was happy ..... As it was crossing the bridge he turn and saw wat seems to it as a dog with another ....... it didnt know tat wat actually it saw was it's own reflection .... it open its mouth to bark because it wanted the other bone ... and in the end it drop is bone into the water ...
Some times we are like this Dog ..... we see something we want so much tat we tend to forget wat we have matters .................
Do we really have freedom ? Have u ever thought like that bfore ? When ur parents u r free to go for it and u very well noe there is a catch somewhere ? Our thoughts may differ from " if u go for it , is it save ? " or "Are they simply letting me do it because they want me to learnt it the hard way .......... " Sometimes our lives are stranded like the case above ....... Are we really free where we are ? Or some else is just letting us do watever we want because they are obliged to. Give it a thought ....... and one day when they have a chance they would take our freedom away.........
Another question is " Is there freedom in the Law " free dom is never possible when there is a law ..... Freedom is never possible when there is suffering ...... yup .... so why do we claim ourselves to have liberty when we are tide up ? ...... hmm..... stay with me when i say this ....... When there is no law there is no freedom ? The Law simply exist to tell us what we should do and wat we should not ..... and freedom simply means doing wat u not allowed to do .....
So my conclusion is this ....... The Law is to be followed with the purpose it has made to be not because we must abide it ....... and thru it we will obtian freedom..... Freedom not because we do not have to abide by the Law but freedom when we know tat we have the choice to choose .... to obey the law or not ? ......... hmm deep think about it
My life as a teenage boy .........hmm how do i put it words ....... life is a treat to those who do dare to face it ........ My life as a teenager is full of sadness , rejections , complication, terrible drama, and worst of all lonliness .......... sounds familiar - ya. Most of u must be thinking tat christians are not supposed to full trouble and worries... tat life is fulfilling in security of the church and no hardship ..... but the thing is this ......... Christians are no different then anyone of u guys out there ...... we face troubles .....we face rejections from the society ... we also face hardship ... we also face those terribles words piercing words straight at our hearts, we face disappointment and stress ........
So does this mean christianity is just a religion ? Does this mean that christianity is just a belief system to improve our morale etiquettes ? NO, christians simply means people of the same world facing the pain and challenges with the help of a God ........ and ya we as christians fail to meet up with expectations of the world and maybe do all the wrong things ...... but we believe that love do exist where there is none and hope when there is none .... we believe in someone that exist beyond our imagination........ we believe there is forgiveness ....... and tat makes try all the more harder to meet up with the world ... to prove to the world there is something more than pure sucess .... something more than power... something more than having a perfect live ..........
The thought being a kid facing a thousand horror . a thousand sadness , a thousand of hardship ...... but through hopefully we wait for a thousand happiness
I m going to write about me .... :)
Well feeling so down this week .. just being in a world so confused and helpless ..... "rejection" is the word i wish it wouldnt exist .....and i wish it would never come to me ... watz with "rejection" ? it has taken its blade and stuck it in my heart ... Being rejected is the feeling i hate .... it makes so terribly sad and awful tat you would wanna dissapear from this planet ... watz more ?! it changes you ..... How am i to coupe with it .... ? well ..... No idea ....
HOPE??? Is there anyone out there? Yea there is .... He is there ... where u go and when life sucks and how dissapointed u are .... he is there .... just sometimes we are Not aware of Him ... We are so used to pushing people away .... scared of being hurt again by the same rejection .... That when a person tat wants to heal us get push away .... He is God ....God tat lives in this world ... A God tat exist ... A god tat cares .... A God to whom u can share watever the results with ...
So stop pushing people away ... Just Give God a chance .... HOPE -Healing Of Pain Everytime .... God lives trust Him .... Rest in Him ...
I'll start writing this post .... with a brief sound of a sigh ..... Here is my story ... a guy by the name Jeff lives by his life normally .... One day he meet Sarah ... a somewhere in the neighbour hood girl who loves to hangs out..... she meets Jeff one day ... starts a relationship with him ... slowly she start to fall in love with him ... and keeps it to herself .. Jeff likes her as a friend and likes to hang out about her .... One day he got to know that she likes him ... but he doesnt dare to ask her face to face ... scared of she being hurt.. if he doesnt have the same feelings as her ...
Now tell me who is right and wrong ... ? and what should Jeff do ? ...
I wanted to post this up to ..... to say what is in my heart
"As You sat down and gaze .... both eye vision at me i could tell that you hate me..... Not bcoz of I irritate you but how i treat you . You eyes spell the letters spite to me ..... You wanna tear me apart with your bare hands when the opportunity rises ...... yes, you hate me coz i wasnt there when you cried, wasnt there when you held you happiness, wasnt even there to cormfort when you have just been through a break up ........... never showed a smile when u needed one .........never whisper those lovely words .... you hate me ...... and wish that i wasnt born .... and yet ..... and yet ..... your gaze shows me that you still want me back .... still ever willing to take me into your life ..... still waiting for me to show you love ... waiting for me to call your name... speak the right words ......................... As i stood there frost by the cold look .... I feel like i wanna cry ......... wat kind of a person have i bcome ? Can say sorry ? I dont think it can be described anymore .... please forgive me .... would You ?....................................................................................................................................................
.................................................Let start over .......................................................
Hey.. i actually wanted to list down my preview on christmas .... but things sort of got in the way .... Anyway... i m just signing in to really sit down and reflect on the things i have done so far .. so if u r with me do read on ... things have been great for me ever since i started 2007 ... though it has only past a week .... i think things are OK !! but i was wrong as i reach the end of my 2007 week... i fell ill ... got a serious soar throat ... had a tough cold and some infections down my throat and ear .. Well sort of got down to the lowest ... i was aggitated and very fast to anger...... i dunnoe wat happen to me but it became .. my walk with my God i think ... so i started to slack .. and am still now to be honest with ya ... and i m in dead meat ... well i do not know what lies ahead of me or how am i going to work this out but God is faithful and merciful but dont aggitate him to anger or that's the end of you ...well enough of me for now
