Thoughts in the wilderness

This world and its functions are too hard to comprehend
The pain and pleasure , the ever wondering heart

The taste of sweet melodies
To shake the heart or minister to the soul ?

The sound of strong words
To inspire own pursues or heavenly message

The sight of gatherings and kindness
Artificial or real

Sometimes I wonder
Am I alive or dead
Sometimes I wonder
Have I make the right choices

Is the one they own
Mine too ?
How do I know
He exist

I asked Him sincerely
but no answers have I got
Maybe I am too naive
Or maybe just maybe
He isnt there