Broken hearted soul

I am so drained
Like a river become land
I keep following you
That I am losing my self

I am tired
Like a man trap in sand
Sometimes I don't want
But I just cannot say no

I am scared
That I might lose this friendship
Maybe - because I have once lost
Someone I loved so dear

I am broken
Like record with no sound
I am no good
I can never make the mark

I want to cry
But the tears will not come
The pain of lost
And the fear of losing

I am greedy
And stupid
Because I want what I cannot get
Protect what I cannot keep