I hate the word for its meaning ..... I hate is because i have issues with it ... if i could i would like to smack it in the face ...... I want hate it but i cant because where i stand .... I hate when it existed between me and God ...
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Trust
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Words
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
The Confession
I have a deep confession to make. One that i m not happy to write about but i have to. Well as a christian and a follower of christ i have done many aweful things. I have failed most of the time to live up to name christian. I have said i would repent but most of the time i didnt. I would say hurtful things to people sometimes. I would fail to share this awesome new to others most of the time due to fear. I would fail to share what i have when i m told so. I fail to do what is right and i want to apologize for the wrong doings done .
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I cried
You might think what a funny title for a post .... Well this recent post is about my life expeirence and it is taken from my journal... some info before i start ... lately i have not been doing well starting off with my studies but this is what happen ....
" Today i cried . i am so much afraid of the future .... My enemies the amalakites ( metaphor) pestizes ..... i cannot face it , i feel so small, so stupid , such an idiot ... i am scared of being rejected. I cried because it was hard facing it but i doubted you ( God ) and am sorry i ever did . i was reminded by my mom that i am small and useless but you are big. You have called me to walk this path. I am weak but You are strong ..... "
I think i can face the world with Him watching
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
What i am afraid off
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The stage
I have been on skits , being MCs , musical ( MYF Sund ) and all that ... and i realise in every all those so call show biz .... There always scenaries .... and they are nice and beautiful ... but the saddest part of it is that no one bothers to notice them ..... Actually ...In this world ... there are plenty of scenaries ..... Its not out in the open fields or in the far far away land .... It is right here in your classrooms ... In your role play ... in your acts ... or even among your friends .... or your classmates ..... Society ... They are the grass that fits and makes the show looks nice .... but never mention or heard about .... If you are still clueless ... Then take deep breath and then the next time you talk in a big group of friends and crazy chatting open your eyes to see what is around you ... As i said they are beautiful but nobody notice them ..... Once upon a time in my life ..... I was a part of the scenary ..... I know how it feels .... It tears you apart .... You someward a stranger but you check yourself to see ...The tag on your shirt says friends ..... and in one part of my life i was brought to light ... i was finally noticed ... finally being who i really am ..... But after a while ... the light is gone and i am left at same spot as i was in the begining .... i think i do have a chance now but soon i am afriad i might lose this light again and be alone in this dark valley being the scenary
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
When I feel lonely and sad .....
When i feel really really lonely or really really sad ..... I like a taste of Jazz and Blues to calm my soul . Though it is not much to a hungry soul ..... It soothens my heart ..... When i feel really really lonely or really really sad .... I like to watch the stars with a friends and just marvel at it not wanting a whisper what the world is happening ..... When i feel really really lonely or really really sad ...... I like a hot chocolate with some biscuts just to talk with a friend like you .... When i feel really really lonely or really really sad ...... i like to gaze at the evening sunset and enjoy the evening breeze that soothens my heart with you ..... When i feel really really lonely or really really sad ..... I want you to be real with me ....... Not to tell me what is wrong with me ..... but to tell me i m here and am not going anywhere ..... When i feel really really sad or really really lonely ...... I like to talk with God and let Him drive my loneliness away ..... Because I am a fallen race that needs the Hand of a Divine .... and i m sure God appreciate Jazz and blues ...... some chocolate .....or even gazing at his creation ..... I dont know what to think because every post i write i will always end up praising you .... Even if i want to be self pitied .... I will praise you ..... I simply do not know why .... Its my soul's call to its creator
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Cold days
You don't feel yourself ,
Some parts of you just tired,
While others just wrestles
You fight to keep yourself ,
But it seems like world war 3
You grip yourself ,
Hoping it will not fall apart
As the gentle sound of jazz,
You sway with time,
Into the hour of test,
Hoping you suceed tis time
Loneliness is a sudden feeling
That makes a soul quiver
That makes a heart trouble
That makes life tremble
You part yourself from what
Was so meaningful to you
You know they are there
But sometimes they don't care
O my saviour, what cold mine shivers
Only waiting for your warm so marvels
This nature that never good
Hoping to taste of love that is true
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
CHOICES
There comes a time in every person's life he or she will start makes choices. Milk or Chocolate ? .... Coffee or Tea ? We make decisions almost everyday. I once heard someone say" Its not the destiny that finds you , you find your destiny. " Choices makes us who we are " and these are true. We were created with a gift - A special gift that is the ability to decide. Many of us or i dare say most of us struggle to make difficult decisions in life. Decisions that will determine the future. Decisons that could destroy or build.
Before we deal with how or what to do with this complicated or hard choices, lets talk about the core of the issue : What is it that is in us that makes us struggle to make decisions ? Well, the truth is from the bible..... We fail in our first decision that is the decision to take the fruit that is of Good and bad ..... We were deceived ... and deep down we are afraid we will make that mistake ..... That mistake that hurt only God but ourselves ... That same mistake that lost all we had.
Well we could forever let that scare us but now we are given that choice once more .... To not repeat the same mistake men make .... decisions that cause us the fall apart ... God came and said common this is your second chance do it right this time .... He gave Jesus to pay for the first of our mistakes .... And now we are in that same place in the begining to decide once more .... Just that this time ..... We have God on our side for council ... We must learn to tap upon Him for help and not foolish go ahead again
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Friday, April 18, 2008
thoughts
23Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Oh what agony
I wish i am a little kid that dont have to face the world so grey
I wish i am like peter pan and run the world
I wish i am like wendy who follows peter
I wish i am like a bird who is free to fly
My dear friend can i leave the snare and traps line for me
My dear friend can i not see what is ahead and stay like this forever
My dear friend when can i be with you ? ?
My dear friend how do i escape this time prison
If i could skip time i would , to best there is
If i could slow time i would , for the sweetest
If i could replay time i would, for the memories
If i could play time I would , rather it never
Who can understand me , God does
Who can cover me ,God does
Who can lift me , God does
Who can control time , He does
He holds everything yet He let time pass by
He can destroy evil and safe good in an instant yet he let time pass
He can cut short painful time yet he chose not to
Because He cares !!!!
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2 in 1 tag ...
List out 5 presents you wish for :
1. Love
2. Belonging
3. Peace
4. Freedom
5. blessings of a house hold
The people that tagged me : En Wei and Wen Dee
Your 5 impression of the Ladies ?
Enwei
A big eater .... crazy ... see my size .? .. i lose to her
A super duper funny laughter .... U see u willl laugh with and (at ) her
Cool hair
Absolutely wont laugh when she doesnt want to
Noisy in a good way
Wen Dee
Super hyper
Have a crush on Mc flurry
Very cheerful
Deep at times
and very deadly with her word !!!!
Most memorable thing she has given/ done for you
En Wei - Lepaking !!???
Wen Dee - kee siao !!
Most memorable words
En wei - Da niu - Wen Dee
If he/she bcomes your lover,
We will see what happens
If he /she bcomes your enemy,
I will be extremely sad
Pass the quiz to 5 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. Joanne Ooi
2. Shaun
3. Chia Ching
4. Dan Ting
5. Sarah Y
1. Who is no. 3 having relationship with?
Special Girl ... i dunnoe who ....
2. Who is no. 5 having relationship with?
not that i know off
3. If no. 3 and no. 2 are together, will it be a good thing?
If that happens .... hmm... nightmare
4. What about no. 4 and no. 5?
Not possible
5. When is the last you chatted with no.5?
Last Fri
6. Does no.4 work?
Still studying
7. Do you have any cousin in his/her own school
nope
8. Will you be with no. 1?
NO
9. How about no. 5?
no no
10. How did you get to know about no. 2 and no. 4?
Shaun - JS
Dan - MYF
11. Where does no. 1 live at?
Alor Star
12. Is no.5 the sexiest person in the world?
i dun wan to answer this !!!!
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Breaking down and rising up
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Sunday, April 13, 2008
GRACE
You can never comprehend this word. It is too overwhealming that you when receive it , It break the toughest man on earth. Such is its power!!!!!! Anyway i got a glimpse of it and here is my story:
It was 7.30 and i was impatient. This mangkuk people when are they coming !!!! After like 20 min the driver came took me and a few other to my doom. My driving test !!! .....And I hate that road to the testing ground it is so bumpy and killing. Ok cut the long story short, I was there and took a number. It was crazy cause like 170 people were taking the same test at the same time. Anyway i met up with my friends and we sort of sembang ( friends since we got L together ).
So after like forever i was called to do my parking. Before i went into the Car , There was this old man who took the test also .... It was a slope test ... He went up and all of a sudden lost himself ... meaning he just went blank ... He let go of everything and the car when down the slope the other way ( belakang ) and it hit another car. Aiyo I kesian the pak cik. This scared everyone who was about to take the test. Anyway it was my turn and i went up the slope looked at the tester for recognition. Nothing. So i went down and then went up again. Same no respond and out of no where. He said "apa nombor you " " ok la turun " signaling i was safed (whew ) .... I went for parking and thank God everything went OK...
Next my test on the Road, I saw that many failed. Including one girl who almost hit the car in front, and according to her she fail the test twice. So sad. I went him said my helo's to the tester and off i go .... So i started my engine did my checkings and off i go . On the road out i was fixing my gear box and reajusting my gear. Then i saw this Mak Cik along the road. She was big size . I avoided her a little but it seems like not enough so i went pass her quite fast and whoosh. I did not hit her but she was scolding all kinds of words .... My testor gave me warning and treats that i might possibly fail. I was silent... We went to out and to a place cannot remember and then we came back... By the way i was still fixing my gear. Anyway , We went back to the testing place and he was very grim ... i thought i was going to fail ... He like wrote a lot of things and then he looked up at me and said ok la .. i bagi u pass ..... Thank God ... i thought i was doomed for ...:) ..
When you know you have done something that you know you going to get servere consequences for it but you did not get it due to this kindness and mercy. THATZ GRACE and until he expeirence it..... You have no clue how privilage you christians are ;)
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
HARD times
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Stand UP 2 ( unfinished )
Hey guys as i was talking about standing up for your sisters ( girls ) those you know. The main " syndrom" of many of us is that we are gutsy enough to make the decision. And yes we are afriad deep down that we will make the wrong decision. Decisions that one we will blame ourselves. We dare not stand by our decisions even if it is the wrong one. We trained that when we do wrong we must cover up. We are also not train to take risk and will always play safe. Secondly i think we tend to divert our attention to other things when we are suppose to focus on the goal. We were named a leader and am a leader by nature. We should take lead and with power comes responsibility. We should be responsible of our love ones. Their hearts and their bodies must be our main pirority. Lastly but most importantly, We must be a people of God. If we lean on other things it will fall. If we lean of God we will stand and stand tall. By this I want conclude by two poems to challenge both guys and girls. I got sweep off my feet when i read those two.
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Change and I mean it
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Saturday, April 5, 2008
Delay
Guys sorry for the post poned but i will write tomorrow :) thanks for patients
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Thursday, April 3, 2008
Rain
It is raining outside with the down pour so loud and fierce terrible ..... and i m trap in this world where i cant escape ... i want to be free to fly ... i want to be free to sore..... but the fierce rain and storm has kept me confined in this corner .... i dare not look .... It is night and it seems to be that all hope is gone .. It seems to be that all light seems gone ... I felt i have failed everyone ... an unseen red stream flows from my heart ..... I dare not raise my head .... i dare not raise my chin.... i dare not even look at you .... How could i ever face you ??? I have hurt you and end up hurting myself .... tiny droplets start to fall from my face and tiny droplet grow into bigger ones .. and soft sobs turn into weeping .... My heart cries out ..... I m a traitor ... How can live on ?
A small still voice whisper to my ear ..... Why are crying ? Why are you so down ? The stranger came and put his hand on me ..... i didnt even look up .... " Sir .... i have betrayed my master .... i have betrayed everyone and i feel so terrible ..... i cant stop myself..... " The stranger was silent for a moment .... I look up to see whether he has left me like the rest ..... There for the first time ... i saw his face .... It was ugly .... it was wounded ... but most of all it was crying .... He held my hand .... i felt there was a strange hole there .... it was as big as a nail.... He broke the silence with his warm voice not like before ..... " Dear Child . ... Do not be sad anymore .... Cause when you cry .... I cry too .... Each time you feel rejected I feel the rejection to .. Each time you bleed I bleed ..... Because I have took it on myself to bear this pain together with you .... I took it on myself to be with you through all the wrongs ......" " Who are you ? " for the first time i asked with a sudden curiosity .... " I am your master's son ...." " The master is no longer angry at you because of me ..... He has sent me to lead you out .... I have beared your sorrows but your punishment that you deserve ..... Look at these scars..... There are yours and mine to bear ...." Furiously i screamed : " Why ?? Why ?? I need ask you too ... Why?? " and i started to melt and cried in his arms ..... hitting him ..... like a little child ... " Because you belong to me and you are mine ...... and this is my love for you .... therefore cry no more ..... be bitter no more .... dont go down the same path again ...... Look !! ..." As i turn my head and gaze out the tiny window .... i saw light and the sun which in now rising after the rain ..... It is no longer night ... The darkness has gone .... I turn my head with a sudden rush of joy and gaze on Him for the first time in the light ... There was this warm feeling that i have felt when he talked to me .... He was no longer beside me ... but has risen and was about to leave.... He turned his head and said .... come follow me .... Lets face the world together .... :)
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Do homework first .... haiz .....
First Name: Daniel
Nick Name: Da Niu
Name i wish i had : neh .... i like my name
Wat do ppl usually mistake my name : david ?? dunnoe la my name easy to remember
- Your Appearance -
How tall are you : 16_
Wish you were taller?: Ya
Eye colour: light brown
Hair colour: black
current hair colour : black also
Short or long : short :)
Ever dye your hair a bizzare colour : nope ... wanted yellow ...
Last time you did something bizzare to you hair : Nothing la ... mayb cut super short .
Glasses or contact : glasses ... never believe in pinching your eveball
-This or That -
Flower or Chocolate: Chocolate (hello i m a guy )
Pepsi or coke : Coke
Rap or Rock : Rock
School or Work : School
Movies or Music : depends
Country or City : Love the country .... Nature is close to my heart
Sunny or Rainy : Sunny
-Favourite-
Flower: Roses ??? how i know ?
Candy : white chocolate
Color : i like the colour of the sky
Singer: Not Particualar .. mayb nickelback lead singer ... aiya as long as u take me out of this world
Word : Wadda,mangkuk, swt , haiz ,how r u ? haha
Junk Food : Bytes
Website: Blogger
Location: Beach ....aaa..... take me there...
Animal: Dog
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