Called or last fate

Do you feel at times you want something and you just dont get it and then when you dont want it you got it ... Well maybe taking up post in organisations are these ways ... i mean when you were a small fry you want to be big .. you want to be labelled made it .. and want to be boss but when you reach the top ... Its just it .. nothing big unless you have super ego and want to show the whole world. Apart from that , it is nothing and it might be a burden .
Being big has its pros and cons .. pros is you can lead people and hopefully people will follow .. Cons maybe you have a bigger responsibility .. Spidermans main theme .. with great power comes great responsibility ... Will i be a good boss ? Can i lead people i dont know well ... or am i just as John Maxwell says taking a walk in the park where nobody follows ? Am i ready to lead ..? Will i fail ?
I wonder what was on Abraham Lincoln's mind when he became president ? or Even my dad when he became my dad ? Well i believe this men did not know that they could make it but they believed in themselves and most importantly God ... So i m trusting the one BIG Boss i have .. Boss lead my path ... Even i dont even know where to start .... Is this Your calling or is it my last fate ( end of the road )